| So, there we have it, the results are out! Euphoria breaking out in most places... quiet grief in some others ( and I don't mean 6 pointers who are sad that not all their 11 subjects are A1). When I got my results, which isn't actually too bad, I thought I reached the end of the world where I would not make it to NJ or HC and I'm an out and out failure. (Oh what rubbish) To think I actually hid in the school toilet cubicle and cried. Ah well, what to do, results overly-filled my mind. I thought not being at the top means d-day. So I learnt about failure and what it is like to get back on my feet. Bit by bit. Slowly ... slowly... but I guess I didn't learn. A levels filled my mind. Doesn't matter what you get for prelims, just make it for the A levels and all will be fine. If not, you won't get to uni and it's the end of the world. Hey guess what? I did badly for my A levels. It was bad enough to send me off into a frenzy as I desperately made last minute applications to polytechnics. So, I got accepted into biomedical science in Ngee Ann Poly while waiting for Nanyang poly's reply for my application to occupational therapy. Attended the 1st week in Ngee Ann. Realised that A levels wasn't the end and getting a diploma wasn't so bad after all. Just as I prepared myself to stay in Ngee Ann poly with the younger ones, by God's grace and mercy, the NUS envelope came. I got into uni. Praise God! So I'm telling you, there's nothing about me being smart for getting into Uni. It's God's grace!!! The way I view academic life and certificates changed. Slowly of course. I still grumble and joke about becoming a lab assistant who washes test tubes after graduation. But I do see that certificates and results do not make me or break me. There are so many options in life. Let's not see our life as the stereotypical one where we move ahead from school with good grades to successful career bla bla... it may or may not be, but let's do remember God in the days of our youth and acknowldge Him in whatever we do! Fill our hearts and minds with God, not results! :p |
